K:
Have you ever heard about a muddy mud?, well that's like the ugliest thing you will ever imagine, is smelly and so discousting...my point?!? I was a muddy mud, with all my lies, my two faces, and my awful life. I had no reason to be alive. My parents had me in an adultery relationship, so when i found about that, i had no reason to live, cause I felt like I was an excuse to my father to be with my mother. It was pretty hard, I always asked myself and God (although i wanted to deny Him) WHY?!?. But one day I found my reason, my propuse, my chance to have a LIFE again, and that was Jesus, what I was looking for, He filled my empty space the one i tried to fill with boys, dance, and a lot of thing that i consider crab today. He IS now my reason to live, I love him cause He loved me first! and with Him i feel secure, i feel undercover, he is now my Father!!! and he is fixing my relationship with my earth dad!!
di:
i was the "typical good girl" that all parents wanted to have. That was my mask, the lie that i used to hide all my pain and hate. My mom and dad were christians, so i had to act like i care all that, but i just didnt. I couldnt be the person that i wanted to be, and thank God that i couldnt!!! cause with all that anger i had angainst who knows who or what, i would had destroyed my own life. But even when i wanted to be someone else, a "cooler daisy" i wasnt sure about who was that daisy, all i knew is that i wasnt her at the time. I hated my life so much that i wasted it just living in a routine: waking up, going to school, back in home ,eat, wacth tv and sleep....every single day...i was like a renter in my own house. iIdidnt know what to do, so i decided to do nothing...and that nothing became in 3 years of my life totally wasted. until one day...i was tired of lonliness, i was tired of crying, i was tired of everything that i was and that day i finally understood that all my ideas of a better life were just crab....nothing else...i was trying to live my life on my own way thinking that i was the most original person on earth but i understood that i was just another empty girl runnig away of reality. That life that i reject, that God that i swear ti would never follow, that savior was still waiting for me, no to judge me, but to love me.....and in that moment i knew that He was everything i need, he was the only one that could fill my emptiness..... i did my best to be happy but it wasnt enough, but when he came i just said to Him: "whatever dude, i'm runnig out of ideas so do whatever you want".....now i can say that im the "coolest daisy" not because i tried hard to be like this, but because Jesus rescued me of my foolish and pathetic life....so.....thanks dude!!!!!!!!!
